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i am an AQUTALLION
i'm building up my battallion
at gang plank galleon
i'm looking for a stallion
to ride like epona
'till we're both in comas
effortless, still shone up
like exor: corona
but i am not link;
i'm the fucking landstalker
taking king nole's treasure
so that i can finally prosper
socially, i'm awkward
shocker
mallow's not a tadpole
and i hate frogger
PLUM-PLUMs and EkeEkes
get me really geeky
but don't be disarmed
because i'm really sneaky
and it's looking bleak
"please be discrete"
asks if i follow
i answer, "completely"
'cos i'll play the game
i'll even let you beat me
oblivious that i've already won
my elite three
delete me, delete this
just don't take my saveszzz
i hate this, i'll fake it
rap game paracelsus
i still feel as lost as i did
walking 8-bit continents
all alone as a kid
NPCs my confidantes
bathe in a fountain of blood
to please voices from above
to kill a HOMUNCULUS
transparent clouds are a plus
i am an AQUTALLION
and i have always been one
in the place in my heart
that evolved for religion
this is what i keep there
dulled string synths blare
i say it unironically
it's best if you don't care
i am delirious
as i am writing this
it's 4am, i'm convinced
that i've transcended
will i record this
or will i discard it
it feels so important
but i am retarded
that's not nice, jack
you've gotta stop saying it
but i've come so far on my
quest to be less problematic
like look i barely ever say bitch
so come pat my back bitch
i am an AQUTALLION
equipped with a toy gun
a cowboy hat
and a mouth full of my own cum
wonderful ideas
getting lost in translation
throw em at the wall
until they stick like a nerf gun
i am an AQUTALLION
i'm valiant
young chosen one
from another dimension
pretentious and filled with
intense apprehension
around every corner's a
panic attack waiting to happen
i am an AQUTALLION
Shining Force is my batallion
i am an AQUTALLION
i am an AQUTALLION
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i saw you in my dreams last night
so i guess that makes you my dream guy
73 73 73
73 years you spent without me
ive never woken up before from a sex dream
and then encountered my encounter in the flesh or so it seems
coming face to face
after coming on your face
in outerspace
in such a random place
now im dying for a taste
but there's no fucking way
i saw you in my dreams last night
so i guess that makes you my dream guy
i bet you never thought you'd leave your wife
after 40 years for dick tonight
but i really wanna give you some
and i really wanna hear another story
bout your days of glory
and i noticed that you havent mentioned any children
so adopt me daddy i could be your grandson
i know youve had your fun
but ive just begun
and i think youre the one
that my flit heart wants
oh daddy o
we could play a little backseat bingo
in the hot rod after a
sock hop cos im rock hard
you could be too, just pop a viagra
then im gonna cum like niagra
we dont have much time left
i guess that im a bona fide geriophile
i wanna hear your war stories
while you fuck me like youre still in your 40s
your full head of white hair makes me so fucking horny
i saw you in my dreams last night
so i guess that makes you my dream guy
maybe i could be the shining light
at the end of this tunnel we call life
ego integrity versus despair
i'm sure you feel the chill in the winter air
it hasn't snowed at all so the blacktop's bare
the globe is warmer but why should you care
i saw you in my dreams last night
so i guess
you're my dream guy
you're my dream guy
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i know i shouldntv never tried 2
fuck u that was rly fucked up
but listen im like rly sorry
can we forget about my folly
i was actin rly rly dumb
jus tryna cum
sucking all the flavor
out of you like bubblegum
and for a multitude of reasons
particularly unreasonable
of me to be entreating you
for unspeakable things
your evilest kinks
i would have done it all
if only we somehow avoided it
and we cut it off
but now things are awkward
and i miss you
and i wish you the best
but moreso i wish
we never had sex
i mean
no
i dont really wish it never happened
but i could do without all of the awkward silence
i deleted all the pictures
and i didnt tell my friends
can we go back to how we were
im good at playing pretend
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boredom isnt bad
ive gotten good at checking out
i used to be distressed
now im barely ever upset
turning up alone
better than not turning up at all
ive still got a little weed
ima write a song n go to sleep
morning noon n night
theyre all the same without a life
im a pretty simple guy
it's a lotta things to get me high
i could call up a friend but im too shy
so it's me myself and nikolai
take a hit of cotton candy kush
ace attorney paper mario color splash
binge real housewives on kokayna's hulu
and i laugh and laugh and laugh
turning up alone
better than turning up with friends
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now you got me in a fucked up headspace
you're off doing god-knows-what up in cyberspace
5am and i'm in bed but i'm awake
mind racing while i'm thinkin 'bout nothin but the way
you're probably off doing things and having fun
i probably don't cross your mind even once
i know i'm such a very small small thing
in your life's grand scheme wtf was i expecting
you've probably got a lot of suitors lined up
with a whole lot to offer you, like physical love
i'm so pathetic, i don't get out much
my friends say it isn't healthy idgaf
i'm so afraid of fucking this up
i feel so close but we've never hugged
but i know the next time that we chat
there's something that i really gotta ask
do you even like online boys
or do you have enough irl joy
do i even have a chance with you
is it something you'd consider is it something you'd do
i don't wanna get my heart broken
but i'm afraid to bring it up 'cos i'm afraid of looking
stupid and crazy and losing you baby
but i need some answers, a yes, no, or maybe
i'm always falling for these online boys
'cos the ones irl are nothing but fuckboys
i must have a high tolerance for sexual frustration
'cos my heart's the only thing that seems to get destroyed
i'm always falling for these online boys
but i swear that this is different so i won't be coy
this subject i would normally avoid
but you're way too special so i won't be coy
do you even like online boys?
could you ever love an online boy?
would you ever fuck an online boy?
would you buy a plane ticket, fly away to meet an online boy?
could you ever love an online boy?
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everything you say and everything you do
i'm all about it
i hear the conviction in your voice
and i'm falling for it
you make me believe that your opinions
are my own thoughts
so i don't need my own thoughts
so i got a little more space in my own head
i can fill it up with your ideas and existential dread
and all i really want is for you to pontificate again
so i'll be here, open my ears, absorb your information
and yeah i know the way this ends
i'll be someone you can't respect
but i am at my wit's end
it's so hard not to become my influence
and yeah i know the way this ends
i'll be someone you can't respect
as if i had the power to choose
if i did, i would have already become you
you've got charisma
and i've got no control
when i'm around you
i'm at your disposal
you've got charisma
and i've got none at all
so just direct me
i'm at your beck and call
when you speak, people listen
there's just something about your diction
it's like you're on a mission
i just wish i could make a difference
you've got purpose and conviction
you're witty and you're original
makes me wonder why i try at all
if i even had the potential
you've got charisma
and a big dick
and a nice body
and you're educated
you're charismatic
and i'm static
you've got charisma
you've got so much charisma
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i just wanna masturbate
and watch myself ejaculate
onto the selfies that you take
full-body nudes including face
i heard u finally got an iphone 3gs
u been givin me excuses lookin like a mess
now u can even listen to music on it while we sext
and send me nudes from any place at any time in high res
thank god for the miracle of SMS
now when im horny all i have to do is send you a text
there better be something waiting for me when i get back
cos u kno i demand a hundred megabytes of flesh
hey
sup?
send me something
what?
i'm horny, wanna suck
yeah?
show it to me bruh
baby whats the big fucking deal
think of how all your rejection must make me feel
it isnt fair to me just cos right now you cant be here
to get me off like why cant you just be real
look im not trying to force you
you know im only doing it because im in love w you
i cant stop thinking bout how i wanna fuck you
last week you said your phone was broke but you really wanted to
but yesterday the birthday gift that your parents got you...
i heard u finally got an iphone 3gs
u been givin me excuses lookin like a mess
now u can even listen to music on it while we sext
and send me nudes from any place at any time in high res
thank god for the miracle of SMS
now when im horny all i have to do is send you a text
there better be something waiting for me when i get back
cos u kno i demand a hundred megabytes of flesh
hey
sup?
send me something
what?
i'm horny, wanna suck
yeah?
show it to me bruh
i just wanna masturbate
and watch myself ejaculate
onto the selfies that you take
full body nudes including face
my semen dripping down the screen
on pictures taken just for me
i wish i had a second camera
so that i could let you see
i heard u finally got an iphone 3gs
u been givin me excuses lookin like a mess
now u can even listen to music on it while we sext
and send me nudes from any place at any time in high res
thank god for the miracle of SMS
now when im horny all i have to do is send you a text
there better be something waiting for me when i get back
cos u kno i demand a hundred megabytes of flesh
hey
sup?
send me something
what?
i'm horny, wanna suck
yeah?
show it to me bruh
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i wish i was playing final fantasy ix on steam
even though my psone is pristine
and is only a couple feet
away from me as we speak
its story of my life you see
i just want something thats
shiny and new
without having to deal with
something that's new
i just want the things that
i already love
to be endlessly
improved upon
I stay knuckled up, I'm in a deep cut
I'm seeing skulls that burn, they trying to cut me off
Avoiding my luck, I'm feeling kinda stuck
I'm in narrow hallways running like it's a ballgame
Hand tracks be tracking me to different doorways
In a maze, and I don't know what to do
Guaranteed though, I will find the Emeralds
They don't call me Knuckles for nothing, I get loose
i wish i was playing final fantasy ix on steam
even though ive got epsxe it's been out on
cellphones for a week
i refuse to play it on a small screen
i demand the luxury of an hdtv
sure beats fightin w them foes all the time
but i gotta do it they always stay outta line
sometimes i wanna just chill and land
but im the protector of the emeralds and gems
i stay knuckled up, im in a deep cut
im seein skulls that burn, they tryna throw me off
avoidin my luck, im feelin kinda stuck
dont call me knuckles, gimme the bux
i wish i was playing final fantasy ix
and i couldve been all this time
but im waiting for something different
but not different at the same time
and whenever it's finally mine
i'll be disappointed and sigh
it's the story of my life
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blood turnt blue and im a little turnt too
i skipped school to play tomba! 2
i dont like the stares and i wish i didnt care
but a babys gotta do what a babys gotta do
and this is exactly what i didnt wanna do
this is the behavior i was trying to abstain from
this is the behavior i was trying to refrain from
partaking of but here i am again im so depraved
im so ashamed of myself for real, bruh
im open bout it cos im coping by joking
and im hoping to stroke a couple of egos
if i make em blow their loads they might just let me go home
n hide in my room
you take a step outside and once youve seen the light
all of my toxic tendencies begin to crystallize
the way i plan each line the way i'm so contrived
one at a time til i feel fine cos i collect eyesight
premeditated tears until im in the clear
a temper tantrum here and there to quell the fear
i havent changed a bit since i was in the crib
now listen to me vomit on my sesame street bib
blood turnt blue and i pretend to get high
i skipped school to play ffxiii
looking in their eyes makes me think of suicide
but a baby's gotta do- wait i think im gonna cry
and this is exactly why i think i wanna die
i mean, i dont really, but the well is almost dry
im running out of patience and im running out of time
so im smashing my controllers while im scratching out my eyes
take a deep breath i mean i guess it's worth a try
bite a hole through my tongue and another stress sigh
it's a bit of an understatement to say that i am shy
don't you think when a book report is ruining my life
ritalin couldve spared the lives of those two n64 controllers
ritalin couldve saved us all a lot of heartache, headaches, self-hate
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i'm gonna hurt you
i can see it coming
this is your last warning
better start running
'cos when i start guning
for you i'ma come hard
and when i'm done cumming
i'll be the one running
take it from me
while i've got a little clarity
my heart is empty
this is not a fucking charity
i'm gonna tell you
whatever you wanna hear
until i get close enough
to whisper into your ear
here's my game plan
i just found me a man
he doesn't wanna hook up
but look at him, damn
copy and paste the shit
i said to someone else last night
regurgitate until i
finally get my dick inside
i'm gonna hurt you
i can see it coming
this is your last warning
better start running
'cos when i start guning
for you i'ma come hard
and when i'm done cumming
i'll be the one running
you don't deserve this
i don't deserve you
so read between the lines, dude
it's time to make a move
you're such a nice guy
i'm such a bad guy
i can't be trusted
with anyone's feelings, even mine
why am i like this
why am i so selfish
all these excuses
i'm straight up poisonous
why am i like this
why am i so fucking selfish
i am worthless
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Please insert DISC 2
01:03
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YOU HIT ME UP LIKE "HEY"
& I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY
BUT IT'S TOTALLY OKAY
'COS YOU DON'T CARE ANYWAY
you hit me up like "hey"
and iono what to say...
i used to look forward to talking to you
i was so interested in hearing about what you do
i thought you were cool, i thought you were cute
but when i try to be funny it's like you're never amused
i wanted so badly for you to approve
to think of me the way that i thought of you
i feel like you don't think about me at all
even after we've been talking for hours and hours and hours
you're just looking for an ear
an "lol" or "omg" here and there
i wish that you gave a fuck
but you never make me feel like you do
YOU HIT ME UP LIKE "HEY"
& I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY
BUT IT'S TOTALLY OKAY
'COS YOU DON'T CARE ANYWAY
you hit me up like "hey"
and iono what to say...
you don't care what i say!
i was being stupid like i always am
i let myself get all excited again
you haven't done anything wrong tbh
i was projecting what i wanted you to be and i'm sorry
but all of a sudden you miss the attention
about the same time i finally got over my crush on you
i guess i'll saddle up and fasten my seatbelt
and get myself emotionally prepared for round 2
i'm just looking for a sign
an inquiry about my life
is there anybody there
i'm begging you to make me feel like you care
YOU HIT ME UP LIKE "HEY"
& I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY
BUT IT'S TOTALLY OKAY
'COS YOU DON'T CARE ANYWAY
you hit me up like "hey"
and iono what to say...
YOU HIT ME UP LIKE "HEY"
& I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY
BUT IT'S TOTALLY OKAY
'COS I DON'T CARE ANYWAY
you hit me up like "sup?"
but today i don't really give a fuck
you hit me up with a stupid emoji
but i'm not paying any attention
unless you're tryna blow me
you hit me up with a lameass meme
i turn my phone off
and then i go back to sleep...
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when u gonna get a clue
i left the read receipts on for u
i dont know how to say this without being rude
i just dont feel like talking to u
i dont know what the fuck to do
i left the read receipts on for u
i dont hate you but i just cant do,
this back and forth every day w/ u
i know i can be so needy
and the last thing i wanna do is
make you feel mistreated
but i could use a breather
but im afraid that if i tell you that
youll hate me forever
so i try to be subtle
but the messages are muddled
but i kinda think you get it
and you just dont give a fuck
about my boundaries and
if i wanna cuddle
then i'll tell you but i don't so
let me have my time alone inside my bubble
you know im bad at being clear
so you steer the situation
your direction cos you know
ill always let you take the wheel
i'd like to think by now
youd understand the way i feel
but theres reasonable doubt
so i assume it's my fault
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UGLY (prod. NEXENUS)
02:41
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i feel a lot better when i see you looking ugly
you're still more than good enough for me
you're still the one i think about when i'm tryna fall asleep
hoping i'll see you in my dreams 'cos it's the only place we meet
i know that nothing's probably gonna happen with you and me
you're looking good in all the pictures that you hand pick
but i prefer the ones a little more candid
'cos when you're ugly just like me i am enchanted
it's a relief to finally think i have a chance with
you
i feel a lot better when i see you looking ugly
and not even only 'cos it might mean that you'd wanna fuck me
what did i do to get to be so very very lucky
to fall in love with someone who's only barely above me
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i will protect my karma
& i will protect my energy
i will protect my good vibes,
protect my mind from racing ahead of me
i will protect my good mood
today i really needed it you know cos its been a week
i will protect myself
and i wont feel bad cos you want the best of me
i dont need to read this stuff
if its makin me upset
cos im doin my best
sometimes my best will have to be good enough
cos life gets tough
and theres no love
i will protect my state of mind
and if i have it i'll protect my high
i will protect my motivation
look at me getting so much shit done
i will protect my flow
i'll protect my heart and be strong when i hear no
i will protect myself
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16. |
B12 (prod. NEXENUS)
02:45
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IM TURNT OFFA THAT B12
IM TURNT OFFA THAT B12
NOW PUT THAT LIQUOR ON THE SHELF
COS WE TURNIN UP ON B12
SHOOTIN UP THAT B12
SHOOTIN UP THAT B12
IM TURNT UP OFF THAT B12
I LOVE MY B12 LIKE ORANGE SODA & KEL
i been turnin up on soda
since i wasnt even old enough
i stole my mommas keys
and then tried to unlock the voltage in the
walls, through the socket
and then i turnt out my pockets
took the wires from my sega
and tried to plug in my cock i got a
shock and took my clothes off
proceded to get in closer
i snap my toys in half and say
damn i really showed em
i BEEN turnin up on soda
self destructive preschooler
that methadone will hold u
but its hard to cut the dosage
shouts out to my sister
turnin up off coke and xanax
and to all my bffs
turnt off of zoloft and res hits
turnt off psychotic depression
suicidal ideation
turnt off cbt thc
cbs reality doc
i get my opiate fix
through my umbilical cord
no need to suck any dick
i already hit record
im glamorizin the shit
you want to fuck and to be me
i want to fuck and to kill me
i already hit record
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i'm a very jealous guy so i don't wanna see a guy
that i like with another guy and that is why my favorite type of
porn is never orgies, never three or more please
whores that reek of purity that i've never seen before, gimme
amateur solo porno videos
a man and his hand and his favorite dildo(s)
POV blowjobs from the top down
red eyes deep throat vomit leaking out his frown
honestly i'm really not even that into watching porn
and jacking off 'cos i've been doing it since elementary school
and at this point i think that i've basically seen it all
but a faggot's gotta do what he's gotta do to drain his balls
it's just a means to an end lemme get this out of my system
door closed sound low but not quite muted though
lemme hear those moans real or fake i dunno
and all the sloshing and fucking and lossy encoded choking in all these
amateur solo porno videos
a man and his hand and his favorite dildo(s)
POV blowjobs from the top down
red eyes deep throat vomit leaking out his frown
i've been taking videos of myself masturbating
out of boredom when i'm horny now whenever i jack off without
recording it i feel like i'm neglecting something important
and in the middle of the night i get up and turn on the light
then i unplug my phone and touch myself until i've got a boner
then i watch myself jack off in 30fps real time
until i cum and then i stop and open instagram
'cos everything looks better when you edit it on instagram
and then i send it to myself and admire 'cos i'm my biggest fan
critique my own technique while i watch it in fullscreen
and then i'm meta masturbating watching myself masturbating
in my bedroom in my bedroom to my very own homemade
amateur solo porno videos
a man and his hand and his favorite dildo(s)
POV blowjobs from the top down
red eyes deep throat vomit leaking out his frown
blurryass webcam shit from '06
limewire vintage, innocent and intimate
the kind that make you feel as if he wants you there enjoying it
like he's performing just for you and not the whole internet
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my little baby fred took a hit to the head
he collapsed on the floor and he bled and he bled
and he bled and he bled and he bled and he bled
i was like fuck this i just wanna go to bed
so we packed our shit and went to the emergency room
reflecting on poor fred's impending doom
in the waiting room cos we got there soon
on the tiny television was a dumb cartoon
i looked at the ceiling i looked at the floor
i looked at the on lookers looking at the doors
looky looky here i coulda sworn u just swore
health care professional inapprporiate behavior
they took me to the table bout 4 feet long
just enough for a pet you see cos fred is my dog
i took a picture and uploaded it to make em say awww
the notes came in my pain is gone because FRED GOT BLOGGED!!!!
FRED GOT BLOGGED!!!
a baseball bat or a bop it extreme
so much can go wrong when youre just a young teen
playing with cards or praying on your knees
victimized by the careless arms at waist level ease
but if you write a picture or you take it in a song
thats an easy way to make the pain get gone
the hole in your skull can be repaired by dawn
just be like fred because fred got blogged
fred got blogged!!!!
fred is a star
fred feels no pain
fred feels no pain
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masc (prod. Dj CUTMAN)
03:40
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hiding
you're hiding, you're
whining while youre
shining in the night
stupidly thinking that
the center of attention
would help to keep you hidden
insulting my intelligence
but you could never fool my eyes of truth
cos i see through the illusions and through your delusions
"I can hear the spirits whispering in this room"
and they're looking for eternal youth
and you are an amalgam of emotions
for me, cos you make me seethe
the way that you're teething
on the edges of erotic
and exotic fantasizing
fetishizing the aesthetics of
your own insides
oh why do you insist on maintaining this guise
even when we're all alone beneath our bedroom skies
3 2 1 STARS open up your eyes
and get acquainted with living mirror on your thigh
fuck it, moon tears for a deku scrub
i get the most done when i am on the brink of love
for my gilded sublimation you are just gold dust
plus, i take pleasure in watching your psyche rust
you could explain it all away as unrequited lust
or unrequited trust, but youre a little sus
but you could never fool my eyes of truth
cos i see through the illusions and through your delusions
"I can hear the spirits whispering in this room"
theyre in your head and they all hate you
youre wearing your mask
but youre still a fag
if given the chance theyd still
burn you alive
the happiest mask
is still just a mask
is it that much to ask
just one glimpse past
but you could never fool my eyes of truth
cos i see through the illusions and through your delusions
"I can hear the spirits whispering in this room"
and they're looking for eternal youth
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i wrote that i was feeling a little unstable
now im hanging from the ceiling by an hdmi cable
it was the longest i could find for the price
plug me in and watch how quickly i cum back to life
in an instant all my data is transferred
i see your face light up with high definition pleasure
i exist because im visible right now
but when you disconnect i'll have no choice but to shut down
everything i have to offer translated to digital
condense it and present it in a single signal
discarded my inefficient analogue heart
re-encoded with ritalin so that its quicker to start
i tweeted i was feeling a little unstable
now im hanging from the ceiling by an hdmi cable
it was the longest i could find for the price
plug me in and watch how quickly i cum back to life
now youve got it all, you can see it all
youve had me at the highest resolution that im capable of
no need to see it again, streaming it once was enough
just long enough to universal serial busssss
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TIGRR (prod. SAD † B☹Y)
03:24
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i got a new pet
he wants to play all night
it's been a day since i slept
but i feel alright
he is a really big cat
and he's ready to fight
he leaves me all scratched
and brusied where he likes to bite
my pretty little kitty
is the one in command
he is the one who owns me
just like the toy i am
pick me up, put me down
hold me in your hand
more than an animal
and more than a man
i got a new pet
he wants to play all night
it's been a day since i slept
but i feel alright
he is a really big cat
and he's ready to fight
he leaves me all scratched
and brusied where he likes to bite
he is a tiger
my baby's so vicious
i do laundry and dishes
'cos i'll do anything he wants
to make him call me his mrs.
i will do whatever it takes
to make him leave all those bitches
i wanna give him kisses
on his dick 'till he pisses
in my mouth and fucks me raw
'till i'm bleeding and needing stitches
i tell him he can do whatever
he can even take pictures
he is my kitty cat but
i'm the one in cages and leashes
i'm licking my bruises and blisters
everywhere i've been bitten
grr
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i don't really like these words
i just like they way i feel when i make 'em work
do it for the 'gram
do it to exert my dominance over these nerds
'cos i'm a stupid homosexual
pseudointellectual
clues are all contextual
nothing to dissect at all
there is nothing of interest here
no revelations or revolutionary bright ideas
shed a tear if i dare
wouldn't wanna appear
to be a wackass sad boy
as if i really care
as if i'm not more scared
of being called a faggot
a fakeass bad kid
or unattractive
real or imagined
same amount of damage
pants down caught flaccid
i'm real old fashioned
i prefer my cyberbullying
in comics sans,
bold and italic,
all caps so i know it's real
baby tell me how you really feel
you coulda channeled all that try-hard zeal
and ugliness into some semi-interesting art, like, for real
instead of polluting my atmosphere
calling me a stupid homosexual
pseudointellectual
clues are all contextual
nothing to dissect at all
and i don't disagree at all
i operate primarily on levels superficial
thank you for the offer but i don't need any help
i read a wikipiedia article in 2012
so you see i'm more than qualified to analyze myself
i write my own lyrics AND my own psych evals!
yeah there is a lot of things wrong with me
just not any of the things i want it to be
ironically i really am a little crazy
entirely 'cos i wanted to be
but as my therapist used to repeat:
"i mean, what IS normal?"
am i that horrible?
behavior deplorable?
absolutely incorrigible?
i don't really like these words
i just like the way they feel when i make 'em work
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23. |
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24. |
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fuckin around like a did a line of coke
i've been up for 12 hours and the sun just rose
and i'm getting shit done and i'm staying on my toes
all 4 burners i'm cooking on the stove
fuckin aorund like i did a line of coke
and i'm fuckin around like i took 10 shots
cos i'm looking around and i'm trolling for cock
and if i don't find much then i'll take hwat i got
and i don't wanna go to bed just yet
i'm being so productive
and i don't wanna go to bed alone
'cos i'm feeling so seductive
and i should go to bed right now
before i get destructive
and i should go to bed because it's late
but you know what? fuck it
i'm feelin great
i'm feelin fine
stayin up late
it's my time to shine
no i'm not frantic
i just feel fantastic
but i gotta take advantage
before...
i'm feelin great
i'm feelin fine
stayin up late
it's my time to shine
no i'm not frantic
i just feel fantastic
but i gotta take advantage
while i'm hypomanic
my eyes are wide enough to see
exactly what's happening to me
no i don't just need to get some sleep
and i don't need to cut back on the caffeine
i know that in a couple days
i'll probably stop feeling this way
until it's done i'll have some fun and then i'll pay
the consequences of daring to love myself today
my eyes are wide enough to see
exactly what's happening to me
no i don't just need to get some sleep
and i don't need to cut back on the caffeine
i know that in a couple days
i'll probably stop feeling this way
until it's done i'll have some fun and then i'll pay
the consequences of daring to love myself all the way
i'm feelin great
i'm feelin fine
stayin up late
it's my time to shine
no i'm not frantic
i just feel fantastic
but i gotta take advantage
before...
i'm feelin great
i'm feelin fine
stayin up late
it's my time to shine
no i'm not frantic
i just feel fantastic
but i gotta take advantage
while i'm hypomanic
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25. |
Good TV (prod. LUCIFEAR)
02:37
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my heart, my heart says
make it about me
that's good
fucking tv
and i dont know
my long term goal
one thing's for sure
i'm in control
with my fingers
on the triggers
i lock and load
and press enter
my heart, my heart says
make it about me
that's good
fucking tv
swallow your pride
make room for mine
ive got the power
and a deadline
ive got your number
you might have mine
but everybody
has a price
im barely having fun
and im barely even numb
pulling strings like jenga blocks
watch it all fall down
build the castle up again
climb and hide inside the tower
just to take another swing
just so i can feel the power
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26. |
Please insert DISC 3
01:10
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27. |
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suddenly aware of both my lungs
should i be worried? am i too young?
it's nothing ever that i fear
so, patiently, i'm here
my love blooms like algae
until you consume me
so can you distract me
from my bad influences
hope it's okay that that's you
that i'm going through
this with, you know i control
what i can, though
i keep my mouth shut when i'm
feeling this way nowadays
it's easier to clean it up
when it fades if i don't say it
i'll spray it like ammonia
so i kill your bacteria
before i get pneumonia
summon my white materia
so i'm feeling ethereal
amoxicillin with cereal
audrey said multiple people
gave her evidence empirical
will i heal at all?
can you hear at all?
do you feel it all?
do you feel at all?
my love blooms like algae
until you consume me
so can you distract me
from my bad influences
hope it's okay that that's you
that i'm going through
this with, you know
i control what i can, though
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28. |
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what do i want with you
when i can have my cake and eat it too?
i've got my 3ds, my wii u,
internet from the safety of my room
you're just a fleshjack
with a heartbeat
that needs to be fed and watered
with a subscription fee
i can get my rocks off
with my socks off for free
all it costs me is money
and that's temporary
super mario will never
leave me like a real boy
plus i get in trouble when i
play with those like a play toy
i play coy when i destroy
the plastic parts that employ
the sweat shops but
i don't wanna be a killjoy
i could wine and dine and 69
or just download grindr
but why even bother?
i've got xtube and a recliner
i'd rather masturbate
i'd rather masturbate
i'd rather just jack off
i'd rather masturbate
oh hi, sir, you're high sir?
you wanna take me for a ride, sir?
my ride or dies all died so
i'm entitled to my
delusions are killer
rap game abby lee miller
everyone's replaceable
and you're just filler
no pokemon to catch
in this episode
so just shoot your load
like a machine gun, bro
like you're a child soldier,
a guitar hero
you're my guitar hero
you're my guitar hero
i'd rather masturbate
i'd rather masturbate
i'd rather just jack off
i'd rather masturbate
i'd rather just jack off
by myself
in my bedroom
once again
and again
and again
and again
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29. |
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i need
two shots of vodka
so that i can leave the house
people ask whats stoppin u
like i do it to myself
all that i fucking wanted
was to go shopping at the mall
but now it's that much harder
because i'm out of alcohol
i could just stay home
and put another twelve
hours into xenoblade chronicles
cos when im flying in my skell
it's almost like i'm not in hell
and i forget all of the well-
intentioned people hoping that i get well
ill worry as much as i fucking want to
not to say that i want to
but what the fuck are you gonna do
if i never see any of you again it'd be too soon
you know that isnt really true
i hate myself and i need you
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30. |
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i see you fucking faggots
are getting right back at it
cos you know youll never have it
a single drop of talent
youre tweeting at these soundclowns
letting them know youre so down
acknowledgement from anyone with followers
you might cum
so tell me what the fuck is it that you even do
a dozen mutual friends and i dont know a thing about you
but youre tweeting about me talking all that shit online
when im a literal no one so what the fuck are you on
you hate on ME?? but stay fucking with all of these creepy lames
with porn of six year old anime girls on their displays
orgasm when you see the kanji right next to their name
scrounging up clout to get a taste of z list internet fame
i cant be bothered with this socializing cocksucking bullshit
not gonna sit here and pretend i really fuck with your music
cos even if i tried i wouldnt be able to sit through it
half of my followers are only there in case i get useful
but i guess it's cool that some people have something to show
a lot of em dont even bother cos theyre too fucking slow
speaking of slow,... i think i finally get the appeal
cos vaporwave is a reflection of your lameass deal
shitty derivative edit shit that already exists
unoriginal and stolen like your entire shtick
you got dreams of
fucking a vaporwave dick
n yea im down hmu on kik
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31. |
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lookin for the courage to message you and
i wish i had a reason to ask wyd
but we dont know eachother well enough to do that
writing songs about you, youd think im crazy if you knew that
wondering what i could post to catch your eye
looking on your profile at your likes
i sound like a fucking psycho, it's alright
as long as we can interact just once tonight
ima send a message, ima send a message
we're gonna talk for hours, wonder where the time went
ima send a message, ima send a message
we're gonna talk for hours, wonder where the time went
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32. |
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i got a six figure daddy
i just have to let him spank me
i take him to the bank
and he takes me to hawaii
shaves my head and slap me
tell me ive been bad
take me out to dinner
thank you fuck im sorry thanks dad
i cant wait to see him he cant wait to see me
looking better and better with every selfie
stripping down to my undies to take a seat
in the rock hard lap of luxury
he said he's gonna take a weekend off next month
grab a hotel and we can have a little fun
he'll send a car to pick me up around 1
and bring me back to the city to have lunch
ill have a couple bites but like um
im really tryna save room for cum
n give em enough time to rest from round 1
cos the weekend has only just begun
then later he breaks out the cocaine
he does a line off my body and then fucks me
pulls it out and he tells me to start sucking
get on my hands and knees to show i love him
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33. |
HEADACHE (prod. NEXENUS)
02:57
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people keep volunteering me
their malicious psychoanalyses
and kindly pointing out what they
think are logical fallacies
in my moral code, hoping i'll feel exposed
and suffer some sort of tragedy,
humiliated 'cos everyone's laughing at me
they'll think they've won if i'm affected
and it'll just go to show what a ~psycho~ i am if i give 'em apathy
i don't know why you're mad at me
and i don't know why you're taking to heart
all of my histrionics and faggotry
you might think that i'd actually
committed an act of brutality
the way you're so concerned about
my potential depravity
'cos like, which of our mentalities
is really more likely to result in a fatality?
i'm sorry you took my personality so personally
but then again, delusions of reference...
see where i'm going with this analogy? i mean...
you're not the only diagnostic decathlete
i think i'm sick in the head
there's something wrong with my brain
but i'm not fucking insane
i just have a fucking headache
doctor doctor what is your prediction
are the symptoms in my description
enough for a prescription
'cos i could use a new addiction
and it would shut some people up
if i was getting help for my affliction
you know, i'm really really not a bad person
i'm honestly the best person i know
i'm honestly the best person i know
i'm honestly the absolute best person i know
this shit can go
right in the trash
i feel just fine
it's so nice of you to ask
this shit can go
right in the trash
'cos i feel just fine
but it's so nice of you to ask
you think i'm sick in the head
there's something wrong with my brain
but i'm not fucking insane
i just have a fucking headache
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34. |
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i fucking hate being gay
it's the worst thing that ever happened to me
and i wish god would take it away
but i gave up on praying for that in 4th grade
so the dick in my mouth is here to stay
i'm sick of trying to fucking navigate
like im helen fucking keller going 90 on the highway
banging a u turn as if it produces sperm
there's nowhere for me to turn
there's nothing for me to learn
i feel like i'm a sim
created on a whim
dropped into an empty lot
with a meager
20k simoleans
as if i have a chance
just fucking buy me a grill
and i'll destroy the evidence
i was fucked from conception
doomed to want to fuck and be fucked in the rectum
a dick or a septum
a rimjob reception
frenulum to frenulum
beginning and ending
of every relation
your cliques n your parties
divided by the type of your body
the shape size n quantity
of hairs on your body
the one most resembles your reflection
produces an erection
your personal brand of misogyny
homoerotic dreams
fetishizing heterosexuality
masculine fraudulence
i fucking hate all of it
cum in my ass and then get the fuck out
i never learned this shit in school
and tv made me look like a fucking fool
i hate myself but i still feel cool
even though i never break any rules
i wanna fuck everything that walks
in the ass if it's got two balls and a cock
and then i never wanna see it again
i fucking hate you and no we're not friends
i never learned this shit in school
the internet was my only tool
self taught with an online class
third grade watching men getting punched in the ass
so i guess you could say my education is fucked
but ive already been traumatized enough
you want that sweet sweet boy pussy bruh?
served up on a silver platter??
i'm getting thirsty as fuck for some dick
and i got so many options to pick
i've got the world at my fingertips
but my heart keeps telling me to smash it to bits
i never learned this shit in school
i'll never get to reproduce
i know that technically i could but ew
but i guess what i'm into is pretty gross too
shh jack it's gonna be okay
haven't you heard it's cool now to be gay
the damage has all been erased
so stop being a stupid faggot k?
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35. |
a single afternoon
04:12
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hanging out w/ you
i thought that we were having so much fun
i guess im dumb
i even made you cum
you said you wanted me to
do it again
tomorrow and
you told me send a text
youd hit me back
and then we'd go from there
and i was really excited
and then i hit you up
just like you told me to
i waited
and i waited
whyd you talk about the future
if you didnt want me in yours
i just dont understand
you said it with
enthusiasm
and confidence
i would have been okay
if you just werent feeling it
and stuff
i could deal with that but
you really fucked me up
it wasnt that big a deal
but im
so pathetic ugh
a single afternoon
it's gonna play on loop
in my head forever im doomed
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