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UNREQUITED LUST
01:52
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are you feeling what im feeling
is this a delusion again
im ready when youre ready
i mean if youre in
i know i shouldnt but
damn you really got me going
and if you look at my pants
youll notice that its showing
you smell so good i could cum
no hands no mouth just my lungs
inhaling your pheromones
please take me back to your home, take
off my clothes take your dick out
straddle me and drop it on my mouth
slap me and fuck my skull
slap me and fuck my skull slap me and
fuck me in the head
so much head but it's all in my head
we are not in your bed and im
probably never gonna get fed
your cock every night before bed so i guess i'll
grab another bottle of the nikolai
and i'll drink it all night until i cry
you are never gonna feel the way that i
feel, you are never gonna fantasize
about the things i fantasize
about doing to you all night
i really need to learn to stop tricking my
self stop setting my goals so high
i know when im not wanted
not like youre doing something wrong
im dumb, and this is not your fault
i need to open up my eyes and learn to be alone
as nice as you would be to bone
i'll make it on my own
unrequited lust has never
slaughtered me before
so i know you can go
and take your dick i'll never blow
take your body far away
while im feeling kind of strong, while i
grab another bottle of my nikolai
and i'll drink him all night until i cry cos
you are never gonna feel the way that i
feel, you are never gonna fantasize
about the things i fantasize
about doing to you all night
i really need to learn to stop tricking my
self stop setting my goals so high
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baby i don't know if you know
what you just got into with me
i'm gonna know like everything about you
by tomorrow, see?
you didn't even send me the link to your instagram
but i'm already twenty weeks deep
and i got no sleep last night
i was lookin at your likes on tumblr
'till sunrise
you have boring taste in porn
and you like posts that i ignore
and that's okay 'cos i'm adoring
your pictures, i'm getting horny
doesn't really matter that your friends seem dumb
'cos you make me cum
what else could i want?
i'm so turned on
i'm so beyond what i should know
by just week 1
and it doesn't really matter that i
have like zero interest in your favorite shows
'cos i'm only thinkin 'bout takin off your clothes
and pressin em up against my nose
i'm gettin obsessed i'm gettin depressed
i wish my tongue was on your chest
i'm reading comments from your ex
and following his mom on pinterest
i'm stalking you on every social network
you thought that you were google-proof but i'm a cyber expert
i should probably be a private investigator
i'm stalking you
i'm stalking you
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the only one for me is my nikolai
hes the one i hold when i sleep at night
and ill never share ni ko lais all mine
the only one for me is my nikolai
he's the only one for me
i am thirsty he is cheap
and hes always there for me
just so i can be happy
makes me feel like im on fleek
and his love is almost free
they tell me its not healthy
but niko's all that i can see
gets me all hot and horny
cos my niko's so sexy
like i said before hes cheap
just like porn its so trashy
got me feeling like a creep
wanna taste him while we sleep
suck him dry rinse and repeat
suck him dry rinse and repeat
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nothing is cooler than pictures of corpses
of children that serial rapists have tortured
show everybody that youre fuckin hard core
a cold blooded badass for sure oh gore
dont be confused, i wouldnt wanna
give you the satisfaction
of thinking that youd been given
exactly the reaction
that you wanted all along
just cos im writing a song
dont think you made me throw up,
cos ive seen more than enough
harlequin fetus, goatse, and tubgirl
the unholy trinity 2004
ive been there done that all way before
the advent of the gore tag on tumblr
a dismembered eyeball allows me to see
how hard you are trying to look and seem
badass, psychopath,
i guess
and your empathys gone
i know that you wanted
just that response all along
nothing is cooler than pictures of corpses
of children that serial rapists have tortured
show everybody that youre fuckin hard core
a cold blooded badass for sure oh gore
nothing is cooler than pictures of corpses
of children that serial rapists have tortured
show everybody that youre fuckin hard core
a cold blooded badass for sure oh gore
bloody blogs
wannabes
shows off
do you wash your body with
bloody band aids you ripped off
bitten til you bleed
got your flesh between your
boyfriends teeth
gotta show the internet
you branded yourself permanently
for the sake of a note
snap another pic with various
suicide notes on your throat
so hardcore you're welcome for the idea
i'll pitch you more when you
quit ripping off
horror movie trivia
for your aesthetic
so inauthentic
quote ultraviolence
dressing like the girls from the craft
now you're poetic
but your beliefs maintain your fear of god
please delete your gore blog
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i like you
i dont care if you know
yes i want you
but i dont want you now
i wanna fuck you but
i dont wanna talk to you
and i dont really care about
what youve been up to
you say that im so cold
but you still wanna warm me up
in the wintertime
i just wanna fuck
not like it's a crime
i just cant be fucked
to listen to you whine
and try to make small talk
so shut your fucking mouth
and open up your legs
i'll get on my knees
but dont expect me to beg
im uncomfortable
im unlovable
i wish youd fucking go
i wish youd fucking choke
dont make this harder than it has to be
dont think ive got you confused with a fantasy
you can leave or you can stay, but either way
nothings gonna change, i'll be exactly the same
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hey baby
come and degrade me
i like my boys crazy
a little bit shady
try to upbraid me
romanticize faster than tumblr can hate me
ap classes i wasnt a bad kid
not a math wiz but aced every quiz
in physio, i put on a show
look at me integrate like a pro
im a joke, i am ice cold,
nothing but the best depressed
alright sold
i like boys with fragile egos
straight ones who pretend to
be bisexual
attention whores who always want more
never a chore and never a bore
delicious delusions of grandeur
what could i need in my life besides yours
i want a straight up psychopath
with a nice ass who can take me to task
if you dont like the honesty dont fuckin ask
im a little bitch but i can get sad
i talk shit, im low class
go directly to jail, do not pass
go do not collect enough cash
to collect everything that i want to have
my personality is toxic
tell your therapist about me and theyll say block him
im awesome at stirring the pot
and im a problematic little psycho fuck
im single but emotionally unavailable
repairable i hope but nothings making it bearable
im scarable away, you can see it in my face
wipe your cum off of it with your tongue and stare away
are you getting what you want
the back of my right arm
against your chest while i fawn
all over your cock aw
i wanna suck it dry
like all night
im really alive
when youre deep inside
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i deleted my heart
and i really want it back
i dont wanna feel like
i might be a sociopath
i deleted my heart
i was young and impulsive
i would download another
im afraid that it wouldnt fit
it got a virus around the time that i
was in the eighth grade
it was really an awkward stage
and i needed the space
thats what i get for illegally
downloading sad songs
and spending all of my alone time
looking at porn
and talking to strangers
until 3am
and bullying stupid bitches
under a fake screen name
and now i’ll have the space to install
apathy 2006
and 6000 gigabytes
of boys sucking dick
and yes i wanna know you
and i want you to know me
but i can barely feel you there
and i wish i could show you
everything i could be
or everything i could have been
i deleted my heart
and i really want it back
i dont wanna feel like
i might be a sociopath
i deleted my heart
i was young and impulsive
i would download another
im afraid that it wouldnt fit
i feel like im on autopilot
when i go out sometimes
and then the other times
are when i just stay inside
i dont know why i am the way
i am but if i could understand
it’s hard to imagine it wouldn’t
help find a way to end
all the paranoid discomfort
thats inside of my head
but to be honest its also the meds
that put me on edge
i just wanna feel feelings
and not border on obsession
with giving the right impression
and if he hates me ill let him
i deleted my heart
and i really want it back
i dont wanna feel like
i might be a sociopath
i deleted my heart
i was young and impulsive
i would download another
im afraid that it wouldnt fit
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i guess it doesnt matter what i say
cos if youre gonna go away you never loved me anyway
i guess that that's an immature thing
for me to say
but its the way that ive been feeling
all fucking day
i guess it really is just
me myself and my amiibos
i guess it really is just
me cos no tengo amigos
i guess it really is just
me myself and my amiibos
praise nintendo only one that
never left me is mario
i guess youre gonna go away again
and fuck somebody you told me was just a friend
but youll never get someone to degrade themself
the way i did for you so i guess i win
i guess that i'll just stick with video games
and reality shows cos i can still turn them on
i guess youre gonna go away again
i guess you already did, i guess youre gone
i guess i'm ready to fuck off
these hoes annoying, whooping cough
d shroomy is here throwing a curve ball
kitty pryde talked shit, i'm so enthralled
your man hit me up, i don't recall
sitting in my room with my barbie dolls
while you hella mad, niagara falls
i go full throttle, rap game magic 8-ball
i guess youre gonna go away again
and fuck somebody you told me was just a friend
but youll never get someone to degrade themself
the way i did for you so i guess i win
i guess that i'll just stick with video games
and reality shows cos i can still turn them on
i guess youre gonna go away again
i guess you already did, i guess youre gone
look at this shit, isn't it sweet
wouldn't you think my collection's on fleek
wouldn't you think i'm the boy
who has everything and more
and i guess i'll just stop
waiting for you to respond
i guess you're a flop
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AMUSE
02:30
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i dont amuse you
that much anymore
you used to like me
but now you r bored
you dont really feel the spark
when you message me
thats ok not like
i wanted to get married
actually im just kidding
im obsessed with you
and my worlds falling apart
im at my best with you
im depressed at you
im a mess less you
fuck the rest its you
ill try to impress you
i dont amuse you
that much anymore
you used to like me
but now you r bored
i used to be your favorite boy
for a couple months
but you got rly bored and u
left me, huh
so im falling apart
be still my beating heart
i wanna get u hard
you could be a porn star
no seriously
look in a mirror, see
youre everything
i got your selfies saved
ill continue to pray
that maybe one day
will finally be the day
youll send me nudes again
like when we were bestfriends
dont let this be the end
i crave your attention
i crave your attention
you really dont understand
without you im broken
all im doings hoping
afraid to talk to you
its all i wanna do
but youre just so cool
all i do is lose
i dont amuse you
that much anymore
you used to like me
but now you r bored
i dont amuse you
that much anymore
you used to like me
but now you r bored
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